What is Everra? and Why Everra?

So what exactly is Everra? What does Everra mean? What is Everra for? and most of all, Why Everra?

Well, even I declare myself to be called and known as Everra here, I actually cannot trace back to how the word "Everra" comes up and what it actually really means. But, honestly, it may be all started with the word "EVER". The word needs no further meaning or definition for it is already complicated enough to explain the word as it is.

There are times in my life, personally, when every sentence I say or think of includes the word, "EVER". I am pretty sure it sounds so crazy now, but have you EVER asked yourself what have you EVER done with your life so far? Have you EVER wondered why are you living your life this way? Have you EVER wished your were somebody else? Have you EVER wanted to do something so badly? and the list of these types of questions can go on and on.

If you find this a bit confusing, I would say it is very typical because I do not really get what I am trying to say here myself. Therefore, to put things more simply, I am literally trying to say that I am just LOST. I lost myself while trying to live a life that I have always wanted and dream about. I just cannot understand myself or what I really want in my life anymore. There are times when I just go blank and shut myself from everything around me just because I do not know where to go or what to do. I blamed everything and everyone for all these creepy shits that have been happening to me. I started to hate people, and every thing about them. I started to hate waking up from my sleep every morning. I started to hate my life as a whole.

I was told that it was normal for every teenager to feel the way I did, but I told them I was the worst case scenario as I felt like there was nothing that would ever save me from this crisis.

If you read this carefully, you would be able to notice the fact that I am writing this in many different tenses and confusing language. Well, blame my crappy English or my shitty emotions, or simply my intention of doing so. I am mixing up tenses in this writing because there are still some truths to all those things I have written above, and there are also some changes that I have made so far.

 To be continue....